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I used to think that this blog would be forever buried in the abyss of oblivion. It seems like pregnancy dampened my desire to blog. The past few months after the wedding was quite a rollercoaster of emotions however I lost interest to express my feelings in writing.

We had a great wedding and a super sweet and memorable honeymoon. However, when we came back to settle in our nest I had this sudden rush of depressing emotions. Until now I still couldn’t figure out why. The only thing that I could think of is CHANGE. I thought I had prepared myself for the changes marriage will bring but I was mistaken. It has nothing to do with M0rn1ng for he is very loving and very easy to live with. I’m having issues with myself…the monster in me emerged. I have this perfectionist attitude. Always wanting to do everything right and perfect even if it is beyond my limitations. I want to be the best at work, best homemaker, best regular pioneer, best wife. Before long my health suffered due to unnecessary exertion. Yes, I had my asthma attacks that won’t go away even with medication. I’ve been sick, couldn’t breath and couldn’t sleep. It was a terrible time. I know I have no one to blame but myself. I’m pushing myself to hard…beyond my limits. There are some things that I must accept that I could no longer do due to my change in status. Once I’ve learned to accept, I slowly regained my balance. I thank God for M0rn1ng’s patience and unwavering love at this low point of my life.

2 months after the wedding, we were blessed with a baby. To be honest it was a shock to us at the very beginning. We didn’t expect our bundle of joy to be given this soon. However, every child is a gift from above and we are honored to have this privilege of being parents.

The first 3 months of pregnancy was an extremely difficulty time for me. I had morning sickness and migraines the whole day. It was at this time that our elders talked to me about pioneering. M0rn1ng and I have been praying incessantly to guide us to reach a decision in accordance to HIS will. In the end, sadly and with many tears we decided to give up pioneering for a while. I still miss those days when I can do a lot in the ministry, share in the early and night witnessing. I take the consolation that Jah is happy as long as our service is whole souled. We still devote our weekends for preaching and conducting bible studies. I know Jah is happy for he continues to bless our efforts.

Thankfully the horrendous first trimester had passed. I am feeling better on the 4th month onward. I was also able to visit my mom and dad in the province by November. Needless to say we had a great time bonding.

We also had our District Convention and we saw one of my sister’s bible studies get baptized. It was such a wonderful time to experience Jah’s loving arrangement to feed HIS loyal ones.

By December, my OB told us to have an ultrasound to determine our baby’s gender. All along we were expecting a baby girl. We even named her Sophia. But lo and behold! The sonogram results showed that we are having a baby boy. Surprise! Surprise! It took us a long while to think of a new name. We were not prepared for the naked truth. (hahaha) In the end M0rn1ng and I finally agreed on the name Andre Miguel.

I am now on my 30th week of pregnancy. A few more months more and we will be able to hold our precious baby in our arms. We are so excited! We’ve prepared a few things necessary for our little Andre: lots of prayers, lots of parenting books, baby’s clothes and crib. We both hope that everything will turn out fine and our baby will be born happy and healthy.

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