Have you ever felt excited and overwhelmed at the same time? Well, that is exactly what i feel right now.
A few weeks ago i told M0rn1ng that boredom takes over me at work. I told him that it doesn’t excite me anymore and would like new things to do. I also told him that what i look forward everyday is to tend my blog and not my daily task. You see, i’ve been in this role for 4 years and i thought i need something new to work on.
Well, i spoke too soon. My boss is here since last week and he told me that we are going to push through with the team restructuring. I am to handle a new role, that of overseeing the special projects team. It seems like it is the excitement that i’ve been wishing for but now that it is in the offing, i chicken out. What scares me? The new and heavier responsibilities for one. Next is how the staff reacts to this change. The people now under me will belong to the other team and i have a new set of people from the other group. They’ve been a closely knit bunch of people and i don’t really know what they think and feel about this change. (Sa ngayon, nakikiramdam pa ako. ) Then there will more conference calls with the US team so we really need to have a post paid telephone line at home. I don’t want to stay up late in the office and my boss has been considerate enough to allow me to do the calls at home. There’s a lot to learn and expectations are high. I’m not sure i’m capable enough. Can i still be a hands-on mom to Andre with the heavier workload?
On the other hand, this the career move i’ve been waiting for…more learnings, more exposure and more opportunities. My boss even asked if i would be willing to go to US to train. Had i still be single i would have answered yes straight away. But having to leave a husband and a son for 2 weeks makes me think it over a hundred times.
Haaaaay! I’m really having mixed emotions over this whole thing. And oh btw, it’s going to be implemented mid July. I need to brace myself to face the challenge.